Every Breath is A Second Chance

That line – taken from Switchfoot’s song Always – has made me think a lot lately about the greater meaning of it all. There’s always multiple times in life where we look back and we regret about different things as we go on, maybe how we’re not friends with a certain person anymore or how perhaps we wish we didn’t say those certain things. And so we spend time, just wishing and sitting there thinking how we wished that we could change how things went on. How we wish we could CHANGE what happened. You cannot change the past, true, but we can change things in the present.
“To err is to be human.” We all make mistakes. And more often than not, we make them even when we’re not meaning to. We make them and wish we didn’t. And so when we look back, we wish we didn’t do a certain this or that – but often these things can be changed. Every breath we have in life is another chance to change the way we do things, to try to make the dream into a reality. It might not be necessarily easy, but often the reward will be greater in the end.
I’m not the type of person that forgives easily. I used to always confront people, never wanted to let things pass – and just not forget about it. But as time goes on, you realize how trivial these type of things are, and how in a couple years, or maybe even a year, you’ll reflect and realize what a waste of time it was, how pointless they were. So it felt great in that moment, to get back at that person and spend time talking crap about them all over the intraweb, waste a couple months doing so. But where does that get you? I’m not saying that you should turn a blind eye to people who do things that wrong you, but I’m saying you need to think about the situation and think about if it’s something you want to remember going through, how bad the situation is, or if it’s just going to make everything worse, as in will this matter what I do? Of course if someone is bullying you or causing you harm/pain in any sort of way, it should and needs to be addressed, but there are many different forms of the sort.
One of my friends from a couple years ago still holds a grudge after we got into a argument about a tournament while we were in Grade 6. I’ve gotten over it but she still hasn’t. We go to the same high school and we’ve never said anything to each other. It seems so stupid to me now, for what we both did and the fact that we haven’t gotten over it – not to judge, but she still glares at me in the hallways and when we run into one another. At least just let bygones be bygones and forget about the other, to me it doesn’t matter anymore especially since its not like we’re trying to be friends anymore but it doesn’t seem to be the case for her, and it just baffles me sometimes since it’s really something that to me really doesn’t make a difference anymore. Would I give her a second chance? Well I forgive her, I mean second chances.. I believe in mistakes you made, of course.. will they have to be given with caution and reason? Well yes of course.
Everytime I hear this verse it makes me thinks of things I regret – and maybe of some that I can do to change; to do the best I can, and of my dreams and the things I want to do, yet I haven’t. Every breath you take is a second chance to do something that you were scared of to do, something that you tried but couldn’t, to take back something you wish you hadn’t said, to think of something before you act on impulse, to change your alternate reality into your real, and better reality.

Well, hello there.

Well, hai there.
So many things have happened since I last posted, but I wouldn't want to bore you with all the details.

First off, what I'm listening to:
Switchfoot - (Absolutely anything by them. <3)
Acceptance - So Contaigious
Hey Monday - Homecoming, Candles
Uncle Cracker - Smile
Dashboard Confessional - Get Me Right

It's pretty much my last trip soundtrack.
Hm, well, in the last couple months, I've travelled, made some new/good friends, had a photoshop competition in which involved an ostrich and a cookie jar - but I still say I should've won - , discovered some new music, enjoyed some good lattes, worked out a lot, travelled, and discovered more good stores that I want to go shop at. PLUS, discovered that hopefully - must - hopefully - reallyreallywantto- probably- hopefully - seeing Switchfoot in the next 60 days. LOVELOVELOVELOVELOVE. <33. Oh, and U2 in the next 80. BOOYAH.

Oh, and Happy Mother's Day to all the Mother's out there! Where would we all be without you, literally. :)

I'm a bit confused to be honest, I kinda ended falling for something that I would have never expected, and to be honest, I blame it on one of my friends who kinda planted the thought there. And from there, it went from "flirt buddy" to well, something a bit more. It's not my fault. Really. I tried. So much. But what to do if it just has a really great personality, and even if it's 'mean' to me (well, not 'mean' and I do enjoy it) but, hay. What do I do now? Stuck at a crossroad, not sure what and if it's going to happen, and wanting it both ways. Not too sure. Grr.
Your call. -ISH.

We shall just see, hmmmmm?

Not sure what else to tell you, I'm thinking of making a Flickr account. Oh, and Ice Capps are the best. Twitter's lovely. And so are you. Te amo.

Ethan Luck's Site Capture.

Ethan's Site Capture. Isn't the site awesome?

The Switchfoot Hurricane.

*blows off dust*
Oh, hey guys. I guess I should stop hiding this underneath the rest of the pile of papers.
Happy Yesterday Hello Hurricane Day! After a long awaited wait, well, it's here. And it's sounds great. This is THE sound. #hellohurricane.
Sounds great, love love love it. For everyone who hasn't gotten it, hopefully Bandfarm loves it enough to let it go. ;)
Make sure you support the guys, go out and see them in concert, and pick up their new CD. 9$ at Best Buy.

- Needle Girl in a Haystack World.

Oh, hey there.

Oops. Looks like there's been a bit of dust accumulating in this corner.
How's it going?

Life's been good. But, very busy. Busy is good. Doesn't let you dwell on the bad things as much. So it's all good.

First off; Tradema-rk has a new layout. And it's been switched over to Wordpress. Christine, Kara, and I have been working on it for a while. Check it. www.tradema-rk.net
As well, Forget And Not Slow Down (www.relientk.com) has now been released. One of the best break-up albums ever written. Amazing job Matt Thiessen. Hope you find someone very soon - someone who's perfect for you. : )

Anberlin, as well as Article One are both in the studio, in the process of recording a new album, both hitting sometime next year.
The Classic Crime are in the process of finishing recording, and their new CD will be released Spring 2010.

The Rocket Summer also has the long awaited EP in digital format releasing at the end of this month.

And, let's not forget Switchfoot. Call your local radio station and request Mess Of Me. It's already cracked the top 50, placing at 46 under Slipknot, Atreyu, and others. November 10th coming soon!

It's already October, which is amazing. I'm hoping it won't be too cold, but..well.. i can always hope, right? I wish it wouldn't be so cold. And that more and more bands would ocme here.
Including Owl City.
Fireflies is huge. It's everywhere. I hear it everywhere. And everyone knows it.
Good job Adam Young!

With that said- well that's about it... that I want to post to the world. Happy Canadian Thanksgiving! Enjoy your turkey and pumpkin pie.

Your actions write the melodies, to the songs that we sing.

Cold time of year again *sigh*.
Fall is alright, but warm-ness is much better.
At least that means Christmas is coming! In four months.

Yesterday, Brand New Eyes was released by Paramore. Personally, I don't like it too much. The tunes are pretty good, but I find Hayley William sings too high at some points. Songs like Misery Business were better. The ending of Brick By Boring Brick is probably my favorite. Lyrically, I haven't listened to it enough.

There is also now one week until Relient K's new album comes out. Forget And Not Slow Down. :) The whole album is being streamed on www.absolutepunk.net, but you have to become a member to listen to it. I hate signing up for so many sites.
Anyways, I'm trying not to listen to it. Relient K fast until next tuesday.

Oh- as well. Article One concert coming! And i've got my tickets, unlike the last concert I missed.. Owl City. Fireflies is getting huge!

That's about it, see ya. Hello, October.

Every breath is a second chance.

If only that was true for everyone around you.
Yes, it's true. If you regret something you didn't do, often you can do it the next. But, what about the people around you?

I found recently that I've been acting in ways I regret around some of my old friends, which I don't talk to. And I'm almost pretty sure that they've noticed. And I just want to take that chance to go say hi to them in the hallways, or around campus. The one thing is, is well.. I'm just so nervous around them, and what they think of me now, after.. after all of this. It's stupid, but I just can't help it.
The worse thing is, last year, we were pretty damn close.
And it's pretty much my fault that I let it get like this.
Avoiding them all over campus? Stupidstupidstupid.
If i could rewind time, and take it all back, I would.

I hope, sometime, that things could get to where they were.
And that, this will prove, that even with people, every breath IS a second chance.

and i'd be lying if i said i didn't miss you