Every Breath is A Second Chance

That line – taken from Switchfoot’s song Always – has made me think a lot lately about the greater meaning of it all. There’s always multiple times in life where we look back and we regret about different things as we go on, maybe how we’re not friends with a certain person anymore or how perhaps we wish we didn’t say those certain things. And so we spend time, just wishing and sitting there thinking how we wished that we could change how things went on. How we wish we could CHANGE what happened. You cannot change the past, true, but we can change things in the present.
“To err is to be human.” We all make mistakes. And more often than not, we make them even when we’re not meaning to. We make them and wish we didn’t. And so when we look back, we wish we didn’t do a certain this or that – but often these things can be changed. Every breath we have in life is another chance to change the way we do things, to try to make the dream into a reality. It might not be necessarily easy, but often the reward will be greater in the end.
I’m not the type of person that forgives easily. I used to always confront people, never wanted to let things pass – and just not forget about it. But as time goes on, you realize how trivial these type of things are, and how in a couple years, or maybe even a year, you’ll reflect and realize what a waste of time it was, how pointless they were. So it felt great in that moment, to get back at that person and spend time talking crap about them all over the intraweb, waste a couple months doing so. But where does that get you? I’m not saying that you should turn a blind eye to people who do things that wrong you, but I’m saying you need to think about the situation and think about if it’s something you want to remember going through, how bad the situation is, or if it’s just going to make everything worse, as in will this matter what I do? Of course if someone is bullying you or causing you harm/pain in any sort of way, it should and needs to be addressed, but there are many different forms of the sort.
One of my friends from a couple years ago still holds a grudge after we got into a argument about a tournament while we were in Grade 6. I’ve gotten over it but she still hasn’t. We go to the same high school and we’ve never said anything to each other. It seems so stupid to me now, for what we both did and the fact that we haven’t gotten over it – not to judge, but she still glares at me in the hallways and when we run into one another. At least just let bygones be bygones and forget about the other, to me it doesn’t matter anymore especially since its not like we’re trying to be friends anymore but it doesn’t seem to be the case for her, and it just baffles me sometimes since it’s really something that to me really doesn’t make a difference anymore. Would I give her a second chance? Well I forgive her, I mean second chances.. I believe in mistakes you made, of course.. will they have to be given with caution and reason? Well yes of course.
Everytime I hear this verse it makes me thinks of things I regret – and maybe of some that I can do to change; to do the best I can, and of my dreams and the things I want to do, yet I haven’t. Every breath you take is a second chance to do something that you were scared of to do, something that you tried but couldn’t, to take back something you wish you hadn’t said, to think of something before you act on impulse, to change your alternate reality into your real, and better reality.

Well, hello there.

Well, hai there.
So many things have happened since I last posted, but I wouldn't want to bore you with all the details.

First off, what I'm listening to:
Switchfoot - (Absolutely anything by them. <3)
Acceptance - So Contaigious
Hey Monday - Homecoming, Candles
Uncle Cracker - Smile
Dashboard Confessional - Get Me Right

It's pretty much my last trip soundtrack.
Hm, well, in the last couple months, I've travelled, made some new/good friends, had a photoshop competition in which involved an ostrich and a cookie jar - but I still say I should've won - , discovered some new music, enjoyed some good lattes, worked out a lot, travelled, and discovered more good stores that I want to go shop at. PLUS, discovered that hopefully - must - hopefully - reallyreallywantto- probably- hopefully - seeing Switchfoot in the next 60 days. LOVELOVELOVELOVELOVE. <33. Oh, and U2 in the next 80. BOOYAH.

Oh, and Happy Mother's Day to all the Mother's out there! Where would we all be without you, literally. :)

I'm a bit confused to be honest, I kinda ended falling for something that I would have never expected, and to be honest, I blame it on one of my friends who kinda planted the thought there. And from there, it went from "flirt buddy" to well, something a bit more. It's not my fault. Really. I tried. So much. But what to do if it just has a really great personality, and even if it's 'mean' to me (well, not 'mean' and I do enjoy it) but, hay. What do I do now? Stuck at a crossroad, not sure what and if it's going to happen, and wanting it both ways. Not too sure. Grr.
Your call. -ISH.

We shall just see, hmmmmm?

Not sure what else to tell you, I'm thinking of making a Flickr account. Oh, and Ice Capps are the best. Twitter's lovely. And so are you. Te amo.

The Switchfoot Hurricane.

*blows off dust*
Oh, hey guys. I guess I should stop hiding this underneath the rest of the pile of papers.
Happy Yesterday Hello Hurricane Day! After a long awaited wait, well, it's here. And it's sounds great. This is THE sound. #hellohurricane.
Sounds great, love love love it. For everyone who hasn't gotten it, hopefully Bandfarm loves it enough to let it go. ;)
Make sure you support the guys, go out and see them in concert, and pick up their new CD. 9$ at Best Buy.

- Needle Girl in a Haystack World.

Hello Hurricane, can you get here any faster?

Spent a while chatting with other boardies today about HH. TODAY - is now, supposed to be the pre-order release date of HH. We've found it up on Bandfarm, and then taken down. We've put it in the shopping carts .. and then it's disappeared. We want to hear Mess of Me. We WANT to pre-order it. Hello, Hurricane - Can you get here any faster? :)

On the other hand, Forget and Not Slow Down for Relient K (www.relientk.com) is now up for pre-order. Go get it. Now. It's great. As well - there's been a Youtube leak, i'm guessing, as you can listen to Forget and Not Slow Down - the title track - here. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9PSQ6JALkZs .
Love it.

And if you like Linkin Park - Skillet's new album is out.. which someone sounds like Linkin Park, at least in my opinion. Check it out here: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DAOSy8WyqPk&feature=related

Alright. It's now 12:00 Pacific time.. i believe, in San Diego. Hello Hurricane, we're waiting.

PCD

PCD. Post Concert Depression. If Relient K, Owl City, Switchfoot, Anberlin, or Thousand Foot Krutch could come to where I live, oh, that would be amazing :) At least Article One is coming soon. <33

Buut, now, there's only ONE day until the Switchfoot HH pre-order is released. And I'm pretty sure I found a way to get this now. AKEE! :) So STOKED for this album, this may well be The Best Yet.

You wouldn't believe your eyes if a thousand fireflies lit up the world.

Owl City always makes me think of carnival rides, smiley faces, and cotton candy. There's this little kid happiness in all of the songs, aha, Adam Young is quite awesome :]
So that's pretty much all i've been listening to today since i've been trying to discover more artists. The funny thing is, most of the other music i listen to is alternative, or screamo. But everyone can use a little bit of poppy, happy music, i guess :P

I've wasted about three hours today looking through how to order items off Bandfarm sans using any forms of credit cards. Sadly, i have no credit card and my parents have a thing about using credit cards online to pay for, non-essential items. Well, non-essential items to them.
The new Switchfoot cd releases for pre-order in two days, aaand not only do you get a whole bunch of extra stuff with the pre-order, you can buy the collector's deluxe edition, which i somehow figure it juust might not be availible in stores. So i'm determined to get it. The thing is, the other two methods of payement so far is money order and cheque. I don't have cheques, or money orders.. unless I somehow convince my parents to loan me money and i'll pay them back, of course. Wish me luck. Lots of it. *fingers crossed*

The other two.. well, three, albums coming out soon that I'm absolutely STOKED for are none other than Relient K's new album, Forget and Not Slow Down, (visit www.relientk.com or www.tradema-rk.net ) , Thousand Foot Krutch - Welcome To The Masquarade, and Hawk Nelson - Live Life Loud. I'm only a die-hard fan of Relient K's (oh yes, the band is super nice (: ) - and it looks like you'll be able to get everything in stores- so I'll probably just run down on October sixthh. Hopefully the extra dvd Cale Glendening did for Relient K will be availible in stores.

I guess it's good i don't have a credit card, kinda - since I have a huge problem for merch, and i'd probably end up getting most of my clothes from Hot Topic, TWLOHA, and merch stores.. well, ok, probably not THAT bad, but you get the idea. Still though - I must get this collector's deluxe edition. I WANT the photobook - and the poster.. and all this. AND the cd. AND the b-sides. You get the idea :P

Alexithymia

I absolutely love that song. And to think I didn`t know what it meant until today.
``Inability to describe emotions in a verbal manner``.
And i think that makes me love the song even more. It`s kinda that type of thing that everyone feels. You know, the feeling that you have, that you just can`t describe. When you`re sad - but for no reason? Or when you're happy just because, well, you're happy? - haha, I had no clue that a word for that even existed. So now, when your friends ask how you're feeling, and you have no clue what you're feeling, just tell them you're feeling "Alexithymic". Actually, at the moment - I am feeling quite alexithymic. Besides the whole parent-annoyance thing.
Ah well - music makes me feel better.

Music - is amazing. Without it, not just me - but so many people, would be at a loss. You can always find music to match your feelings. It can make you feel better, or it can help you rant. Currently - I've been addicted to three bands for at least 1 year and a half - if not more. Relient K, Anberlin, Switchfoot. <3 Love. Check them out. They're ahmazing.
Two other bands that have really peaked my interest are Article One and Thousand Foot Krutch. Article One is a pop-rock type band from London that got signed in 2007-ish by InPoP records. - and i saw them in concert this summer - which, noting, that they were great. The whole band is really, really nice too :) Just saying, you know you're addicted to a band when you listen to one song, 170-ish times in two-three-ish days. :P That song, was, Without You (It's Not Alright). Listen to it.
Thousand Foot Krutch - is a more, screamo-ish type band. They are also, AWESOME live. And very, very, catchy. Check out their new album, Welcome To The Masquarade coming out September 1st.

Matt Thiessen, Stephen Christian, and Jon Foreman have, by far, though, written some of my favorite songs. Stephen Christian - is the one who wrote the song Alexithymia, which is on their album Cities.

Yes- for Stephen Christian's writing skills :). Mentioning that- he writes some of the greatest songs i know - along with one of the greatest blogs. Check out Anberlin - and check out modesty.blogspot.com . It's way better than mine, promise. :) I mean, i just spent the last 40 minutes with my friend trying to figure out twitter and blogspot names. And let's just say that blogspot and twitter didn't like any of the names. The thing is, the people that have them - haven't touched their blog for 5 years?

Heh, anyways- if you've made it this far - and even discovered my blog, I congratulate you :)

First Post;

Bloggering starting now. Hopefully some of these posts will be interesting enough. And not just done at 1 AM when i have nothing better to do then, well photoshop. Or watch 24. And The Office.